A New Perspective...

It is amazing how much God teaches us in our daily lives...and yet, so often we forget to take time to process and truly realize what it is he wants us to learn. One thing I know he has been teaching me is simply being content in HIM. Realizing that all I need is him and I need to find my contentment in that...just me and him. After a slightly rough few weeks my sister Jori sent me a youtube link to a song last week and it truly helped me remember this new concept. The lyrics have been stuck in my head everyday since. 


Me And Jesus by Stellar Kart

When there's nowhere else to turn
All your bridges have been burned
Feels like you've hit rock bottom
Don't give up it's not the end
Open up your heart again
When you feel like no one Understands where you are

[chorus]
Someone loves you even when you don't think so don't you know you got
Me and Jesus by your side through the fight you will never be alone on your own you got me and Jesus

After all that we've been through
Be now you know I've doubted too
But everytime my head was in my
Hands you said to me
Hold on to what we got
This is worth any cost so
Make the most of life
That's borrowed
Love like there's no tomorrow

All I need is JESUS! That's it...everything else is just blessings from the Lord! I am now on a quest to love those around me and more importantly love Jesus everyday. As good as I can for today...because that is all we have. I am working on worrying less about tomorrow and what my future will hold and be content with me and Jesus right now. 

It has been a daily battle the last few weeks especially trying to keep this new perspective of just me and Jesus. Today in chapel we sang another song that brought tears to my eyes and for the first time I realized today that I am there...maybe not for good but for today I am content. Me and Jesus. I don't know what tomorrow or the next day will look like, but for right now I am content and I have a new song in my heart. 

Forever Reign by Hillsong Live

You are good, You are good
When there's nothing good in me
You are love, You are love
On display for all to see
You are light, You are light
When the darkness closes in
You are hope, You are hope
You have covered all my sin

You are peace, You are peace
When my fear is crippling
You are true, You are true
Even in my wandering
You are joy, You are joy
You're the reason that I sing
You are life, You are life,
In You death has lost its sting

Oh, I’m running to Your arms,
I’m running to Your arms
The riches of Your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

You are more, You are more
Than my words will ever say
You are Lord, You are Lord
All creation will proclaim
You are here, You are here
In Your presence I'm made whole
You are God, You are God
Of all else I'm letting go

Oh, I’m running to Your arms
I’m running to Your arms
The riches of Your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

My heart will sing
no other Name
Jesus, Jesus

Oh, I’m running to Your arms
I’m running to Your arms
The riches of Your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

As I go into this Thanksgiving, I am holding the perspective that it is me and Jesus. I will be constantly reminding myself this truth, but I know the truth...all I need is me and Jesus. 

Dear Lord, 

I praise you for this truth you have reminded me of these last few weeks. I praise you that you are all I need and that you love me more than anyone else does or ever will. Help me to be content in it just being me and you. I know I will fail and that I will need your grace as I adjust to this new perspective, but I praise you in advance for that grace you will provide. I love you...I am yours and you are mine!

P.S. Sorry for the length of this...I almost cut some of the lyrics out but they are just all too good...I couldn't do it. Thanks for reading. :)

The Beginning...

Well, here it is...my first blog post. I don't even know where to begin. God has been teaching me so much the last few months of my life and I need to start sharing my story because I know God has a bigger and better plan than I do...so here it is...


On August 30th, we had an All Dorm Meeting. Our school counselor came in and read us a poem about transformation and moving on. (Honestly, I don't remember much about the poem itself...I remember more of the amount of tears it made me produce...and yet that was just the beginning). She asked us the following question and asked us to respond to that question...below is what I wrote in my journal. 


What do you want to leave behind? 


Leaving behind things is hard to do when you try. Often we leave things behind when we don't mean to. Why is it so hard to let go of things when we try? Is it the Holy Spirit prompting us to remember how we have changed? Maybe it's the grip that Satan has on our soul...forcing us to remember our sins...hoping for our return to that sin. Maybe we can't leave things behind because of the fear of the unknown. Leaving things behind brings about change, growth and stretching...all of which are hard to go through and yet are essential elements that God uses to shapen us into someone more like Him...good ol' sanctification! Leaving things behind and becoming a new and transformed being into someone more like Him is what we are Christians are called to do. Change our lives on earth to represent Christ and who He is...now the question is...Why are we afraid to change? 


Little did I know God was preparing me for a lot of change in the following weeks and months. This question still haunts me..."why are we afraid to change?" Especially when the changing is for the better, why are we afraid of it? I know God has a plan for what he is having me walk through, yet, a part of me doesn't feel ready.


My blog will be stories of how God is working in my life. I realized that my story is too good to keep to myself...so that's what this blog is for. I am a little nervous to share my heart like this, but I love writing and I want to share this gift to the world. I am anxious and terrified to see what else God is planning on teaching me this year...but I know God is faithful, and that he loves me very much...so in some strange sorta way...I am ready!