6/10/2012
Today was a very bittersweet day. I had a hard time sleeping last night because I knew I was just a few hours away from saying goodbye to my new friends and my beautiful babies. This morning we went to Haitian church then to english church...it all went by way too fast. We had lunch and the time came for me to say bye to my little angels. We spent 30 minutes together in the nursery before my friends came to pick me up. It was nice to be able to hug and kiss my babies one last time. I felt the tears coming but tried hard to hold them in. The babies acted as if they knew I would be leaving them...they kept hugging me and didn’t want to let me go. When I finally put Miss W. down she fell apart and that’s when my tears came. Not just a few...LOTS. The thought of never seeing these little ones again breaks my heart. The thought that only 1 of my 6 babies has a forever home is heartbreaking to me. I had no idea that after just 3 weeks I would be so bonded to them. I so badly want to come back...those darlings wrapped their fingers around my heart and are clinging tightly to it.
Despite the hardness of saying goodbye to my new friends and my angels, it was great to be reunited with friends from back home again. Mason, Lauren and Jamie came to pick me up and after a bumpy ride home, we made it to Port-au-Prince, where Mason and Lauren serve. We unpacked and got settled in some then Mason, Jamie and I went visiting in the town. We met so many people, beautiful people, lots of children in their small homes...made out of any scrap material they can find. Most of the homes in this area were wiped out from the Earthquake. People still can’t afford to fix their homes well so they are living in shacks with tarps over their heads. There is no way to even begin to describe the devastation these people call home. It was fun to be able to see the town and see homes. My Vancouver church, Evergreen Bible Church, just sent a team of men to build a house for a family in need and I was able to see the finished product! It is awesome to see how much progress can be done in terms of building homes for the people with help from Haitians and Americans.
After several hours out in the community, we came back home. We got some food then watched a movie. Tonight I am going to be exhausted. So many emotions are flooding my heart and mind right now and I can’t sort them through. I am happy to see old friends again and to start the second part of my journey here. But I am also heartbroken from saying goodbye to my babies. Wondering if I will come back is floating around in my mind. I don’t even have words for the emotions I am feeling now. Hopefully with time and prayer I can begin to sort my feelings out and decide what my heart is telling me to do.
Please PRAY that I can process these hard goodbyes well. Please PRAY that tomorrow as I begin teaching (5/11) I can fight off nerves or any fears I might have. PRAY that as I adjust to a new part of Haiti I can find my rest and peace in God.
PRAISE God that we were safe in our travels today. PRAISE God that I have made it this far in my journey...He will continue to be faithful each and everyday.
“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:22-23
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