'It's just the dark before the morning...'

Well friends, it has been awhile since I have updated this so I thought I would write a new post tonight. I feel like a lot has happened since last time, but then I also think that it is all this cycle of trying to figure out life after college and I wind up back in the same place.

I have been looking for and applying for jobs, six now, to be specific. Each time I find myself getting excited and then hearing no. Honestly, with each no it gets more and more discouraging and I find myself wanting to doubt who I am or how God has created me.

The reality is though, the God who created the universe also created me and specifically crafted me for a specific ministry and job. He knows me and my future more than I do and I can rest in the knowledge that he knows so much more. It is in this knowledge that I rest tonight. I find myself in the midst of this doubt but trusting so much that God has something even better than all of the other no's. At this point, it is harder to imagine that God has something even better than this. As I sit in my room on a Friday night watching a movie, I am filled with peace knowing that I have a huge adventure ahead, beginning in 36 days. Who knows where I will end up, and I am choosing to let that unknown fill me with excitement instead of anxiety.

This morning at work I was listening to the radio and the song 'Before the Morning' by Josh Wilson came on. It was a new one for me but it felt as if God had that song play specifically for me. I am choosing to use this song to help remind me of my new perspective. Things may seem a bit dark right now because of the unknown, but there is a morning coming and there is an adventure for me.

I can not wait to inform you all of what that new adventure is. In the meantime, please pray with me that God would continue to open and shut doors and that I would be patient and trust in a faithful God. My prayer now is that God would place me where I can serve Him best. Where God can use my gifts, talents and life experiences to serve Him most, wherever that might be! Until next time...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mfWAG-bnttQ